Ramblings!!!!

It was a mixed feelings monday... the day and most part of the evening have been good even though sleepy lian was at work.. due to lack of sleep over the weekends.. long long story.

It ended off with a horrible note.. never felt so horrible at lending a helping hand, though help was not even given, jus a question to offer help. Was branded a kaypoh for being kind!!!!!!! What kind of @!^#*@^#@* was that?????? Never felt like getting off a taxi as fast as possible as yest night, the uncle jus went on n on n on.... even though i wasnt responding to his 'lecture'.

Never never felt so horrible... he seems to be able to find something to 'lecture' me throughout the journey.. even my dad does not do that to me. It wasnt a kind teach u something new for free lesson, it really made me feel so horrible about myself, i dunno wat it is, but when i reflected upon it when i reached home, i realised, this is the kind of moral education i received too - kind = kaypoh. AARrrgghhh!!!! Question: do i still want to be kind and do good to others? yes.. but i guess i need sometime to let this distasteful memory go away...