I want to sing~

I woke up feeling empty... Its been like this the last few days. No amount of play, company, love can fill it up.. and i know it. Im bursting within with a dire need of being inspired, a deep need for a shoulder thats big, strong and steady to lean on and tell me that everything will be alright. I feel like i am sitting for one major exam in my life, but like all exams aftermath, I am emptied in the process, there are some others that emptied me on top of it.

I am actually very scared. I am actually very lost. I am actually very insignificant.

Never roller coasted so much in all my 30 years, but it seems like tears dont run out the last few months, even now. I am not strong, neither capable neither clever, in fact, im the very opposite. Searching my heart, i am excited about life and what lies ahead though i do not know what is in store, thats the whole idea of finding joy in discovering, life unravelling. But I do not need alot of things. I am happy with simple things in life.

As for now, this very moment... I just want to sit on a grassland in front of a lake or on a bench by the sea, singing.. this song thats close to my heart.. till i am filled up to the brim again.

I want to sing ~

I want to sing until I am lost in Your love
Till im found in Your presence
worshipping before your throne

Moved by Your spirit entering into Your flow
How precious this moment
Lord I want you to know

It is You
You who have won my heart
Taken me into Your arms
comforted me like a friend

Your love surrounded me right from the start
I never want to be apart from You ever again~