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It is over. It has come to an end... a real end. I am slow, really slow... it took my emotions to catch up on me today, 2 days after the whole thing. 

To start the story, it will take days and nights to finish sharing. The story has come to an end with her last breathe. 

For many years, I thought i will not feel anything, but i do. For many years, i thought i have forgiven,  i just realised abit maybe, definitely not all. 

It is really true that all things, whether good or bad will go down with the dead, once and for all. Remorse or regrets, release or relief goes down too with them. I learnt precious lessons too this day, to live with no regrets, no matter how bad the person in our lives maybe, to be able to forgive is the greatest gift we can ever receive. Continuing to love with actions will win the most hardhearted person. Seize the day, to love and to forgive, do what your heart prompts you and let no regrets leave its footprints there. God holds and decides the course of a king's heart, your and mine, so leave your heart with Him.

i hope to find a . in this journey soon too.