Things I like to do....

there are many many things i like to do... wat i lack most now is courage. Arrgghh.. but im looking forward to see them happen as i pluck up enough courage to make them happen.
The excitement coupled with endless apprehension and hows, is enough to kill me emotionally but yet at the same time, taking what John C. Maxwell says, dont look back in time and recount the numerous what ifs in life.

I don't want to recount what ifs, i don't want to end up being a coward who did not dare to be used and stretch by God, by myself, by life's ups and downs. I want to recount life's victories, i want to be an overcomer, i want to be able to say yes, though i have failed before, at least i tried, no regrets.

Things are brewing within me, dreams are looming, they seems possible. They are intertwining themselves with the desire in my heart as a servant of God, they are piecing themselves together amazingly. Like i said, now i need courage and open doors from Him, i need to be able to see the opportunities and pathways He is going to provide. Last thing i need is retreating and withdrawing from the challenges that these things brings along with it.

When will the training end? I think they just began... on a different platform and level. Im changing... i know... cos i see it. Im not talking... not here, not in real time.. i know... cos i dunno what to say to who... im apprehensive. For now, i just want to think through and allow thoughts to flow...