who am i

Am i who you say i am? Am i who others say i am? Am i who i say i am? Am i who God say i am?

Who am i? Made up of outer skin, inner bones, organs and tissues, feelings and brains, who am i really?

Am i the one who i know? How i feel, what i think? Am i kidding myself or others? or others kidding themselves and me? Im not getting schizo here, those who know wat im saying knows, those who dont, its okie.. its not important.

Im jus wondering, the me from the mouths of others, even from myself, are they real? or are they jus a beautiful picture? or worse, what they think it is?

I care, don't i? I do, if not,i will not be pondering; if not, i will not writing what im writing now; if not, i will not be feeling what im feeling now.
Maybe just maybe, my heart is bigger than my brain.. but i know.. im more than a heart person. If not, i will be jus a brainless person who cant think.. then i wonder who have i been in Christ all these years. Then i wonder who have been making the decisions the last few years for me.